Due to my strong dislike of crowds, we avoid driving to downtown to see the fireworks - instead, we make a short and quick appearance at my parents house which is filled with family members that seem to only get together during the holidays. I find this tradition sad - especially since I have friends who travel many hours across state lines to get together with their family members during the holidays - we all live within 10-15 minutes from one another; yet we only gather during the holidays. After our short stint at my parents, we journey over to our apartment and watch Ryan Seacrest and the many live performances; crack open the bubbly - clink the glasses, hugs & kisses and off to bed we go. We're in bed by 12:05AM. Another year has come and gone.
The highs and lows of 2012:
-High H visits Ethiopia for her first time with her father & step mother for the entire summer-Low H drops a bombshell on me that she's staying in Virginia with her father & step mother
-High I get accepted and start Keuka college working towards my bachelor's degree
-Low after the first semester I have to drop due to no financial aid-High plans for summer travels - we visit Lancaster PA and go the Syracuse State Fair
-Low deep down hurt and feelings of betrayal on part of H
-High we surprise A with a cell phone and some things she wanted for Christmas
-Low disappointed by the ungrateful behavior displayed by A
-High register A for piano lessons
-Low A doesn't seem to be all into the piano lessons - money wasted!
-High possible miracle which will allow me to return back to school
-Low no word yet still waiting on miracle - more debt? Is it worth it?
As 2013 creeps in - here is what I will be doing...
*Stop trusting people so much...
*Stop worrying about what other people think, say & do...
*Focus on those that live under my roof; and my other 2 children no matter what...
*Cherish each day like it's my last on earth...
*One way or another I will achieve my bachelor's and I'll have only myself to thank debt & all...
*Accept that our children are on 'loan' to us from God and all we can do is wish the best for them - regardless of what road they choose to travel...
*Forget the past - and the people from the past - they're in the past for a reason...
*Embrace my body - muffin top, stretch marks, cellulite and all...!
*Eat healthier & drink more water...
*Keep those friends that push me to be the very best I can be close to me...and the rest at arms length...
*Be wary of those that are always posting scriptures on FB - even the devil knows the bible. Christianity is about a personal relationship with Christ. It's about seeing Christ in that person. Many need a new mirror because the reflection is foggy...
*Not planning any more 'girls only' get togethers - yall already know my plans; so you make the move...
*Remembering why I fell in love & rekindling the romance...we have many many many more years together & before we know it'll be just us...
*Most importantly I will be becoming the mother, wife, daughter, sister, cousin, grand-daughter, niece, aunt, co-worker, employee, friend...Child of God that Christ intended for me to be!
Remember as you're out celebrating...Do NOT use your cellphone WHILE driving! No call or text is worth your life or that of another...Drink and drink good...BUT do not get behind the wheel! Call a cab or have a pre-arranged designated driver! Have fun and have a safe New Year's! Here's to 2013...
